You don’t deserve this poem,
But because we once shared a home
Because we once shared a heart
I need to express our coming apart.
For years I denied the truth
For years I tried to be your Ruth
For years I hid the pain
For years I accepted I would never again feel the same.
Slowly my identity faded
Slowly my attitude became jaded
Slowly my confidence dwindled
Slowly my love for you could not be kindled.
The more you said you tried
The more I cried
The more you said you would get better
The more I felt my heart become deader
With every look at an unknown her
With every comment for me to dress sexier
With every night I slept alone
With every eye that would roam
I died, piece by piece inside
From everyone I chose the pain to hide
Because I wanted to respect you
Because I thought it was the right thing a wife should do
Now, I wonder what it was all for
Now, I’m glad we’re not together anymore
Now, though I would probably still do it all again
Now, I know it’s the best thing that it came to an end.
-T
~April 26, 2009
