Sep 222010
 

Well, for a while I’ve been contemplating really making an effort to make a go at a writing career. In college I began a novel that I worked on diligently every day for a few months and then… life got in the way and I put it aside. Throughout the years I’ve gone back to it, made changes, added, but nothing has come of it. In fact, all I have is a hard copy because the age of floppy disks no longer serves me well with the electronic files. Eventually, I’ll retype my initial novel, but for now I’m forging on into other areas.

I’ve joined a couple of writing sites where I can write what I like and then have the potential to earn some money off of the ads that are placed on the pages of my articles. So far, in just a few weeks I’ve made 16cents! Yes, that’s right – I’m on my way to the big bucks! πŸ˜€ haha. Right now, it’s not about the money (of course with writing, is it really ever about the money?), but at least I’m writing. I’m getting there.

Lately, I’ve really felt this need to write about adoption. To share my story, which is unique to most adoption stories. While I share much in common with other Korean adoptees, I also have an extremely different experience than any other transracial adoptee I’ve ever met. The themes are no different, though and because of that, I feel it’s time. It’s time for all our voices to be heard and to let others know more about our silent, ignored and hidden community.

So, my postings may take a turn or they may not – I’m not sure how much I will post here of my writings directly, but of course thoughts will continue to flow here…. πŸ™‚

Until next time…

-T

 Posted by at 21:26
Sep 222010
 

Some time last year a colleague received a copy of this book as a gift from his students. As he already had read it, he offered it to me. I had heard about it and all the hype that surrounded it when it first came out in 2006, but to be honest I was quite skeptical about it. It sounded like some sort of new-age religious/spiritual book that people fell in love with just because it could be called religious without having a religion attached.

The book felt like a marketing scam throughout. While the ideas behind the secret are worth considering – imagining positive things happening/existing and having them happen – I am still in some doubt about the whole thing. Of course, it never hurts to test out its theory:Β  Imagine for a month something unimaginable happening. Imagine that it has already happened and you are living life with it. For example, imagine that you receive $50,000. Think as if you already have it. Do this for at least a month and you’ll see it start to happen because the very fact that you’ve thought it, you’ve sent energy out into the world bringing it to you.

Sound like a scam to you yet? πŸ™‚ Still…it can’t hurt, right? πŸ˜‰ I’m not yet a believer in this actually bringing me $50,000 in the next few months. However, I do believe in positive thoughts, energy. I do believe that if we stay positive and imagine the best, there’s a much higher chance of success than if negativity pervades. So, I guess I have to say I’m still undecided about The Secret. I’ll keep you updated if my positive energies bring about my visions in the next few months.

Thus ends my reading updates. I’m afraid I’m going to have to switch my energies to more academic readings for a while, but I thoroughly enjoyed my summer reading and look forward to the next holiday when I can treat myself to more literary escapes!

-T

 Posted by at 21:02
Sep 222010
 

I end my summer reading update with my favorite book of the summer. It takes me a while to get to anything that is popular or trendy because I tend to avoid conforming to what everyone else is doing at a specific time. However, I can now fully appreciate why everyone was raving about _Three Cups of Tea_ by Greg Mortenson.

Mortenson was a mountain climber. A failed attempt at K2 leads him to a small village in Pakistan, where his entire life path will change. A nurse by trade, a mountain climber by life, Mortenson paves the way to liberating Pakistani women and children by building schools, women’s centers and more. It’s an amazing story of his life, both with failures and successes in making a difference in the world.

As I read this novel, I felt a reminder as to why I wanted to become a teacher. I felt a sense of why I chose to come to this region that I’m now in. In my own way, I want to make this kind of difference and change in the lives of the Emiratis. While I dreamed of paving the way in new schools of Afghanistan and Iraq, learning to survive in this milder Arab nation has taught me that perhaps I’m not up for the kinds of challenges that Mortenson faced. He, being a tall white American male, struggled. I can only imagine how much worse it would be for me – a short American female of Asian descent. Still, instead of making me feel defeated, reading the novel gave me hope about what I can do where I am now. I might not have as great of an impact on the world as Mortenson, but every small step counts.

For teachers, dreamers and optimists – this is the book for you!

More to come…

-T

 Posted by at 20:52
Sep 222010
 

What a book! Recommended by my BFF to read and part of Oprah’s Book Club, I had recently considered reading this book, but wasn’t sure as I am still not sold on contemporary fiction – though from my summer reads, I’m not sure I can say that anymore!

This novel by Kathryn Stockett was a great read. I could hardly stop reading it and that was on my iPad! It had a bit of _Uncle Tom’s Cabin_ feeling to it, but it was much more inspiring. I felt not only the position of the black women who were hired as help, but also the feminist movement that the main character was struggling with. I don’t want to write too much detail about the novel because I definitely recommend this as a must-read.

All I know is that there is no way that I could have lived in these times…I barely make it in my own time…. 😐

More to come…

-T

 Posted by at 20:41
Sep 222010
 

_Committed_ by Elizabeth Gilbert

_Eat Pray Love_ fans may not enjoy _Committed_ as much, but for me in the phase of my life I’m at right now, I thoroughly appreciated Elizabeth Gilbert’s research and discovery on marriage.

Taking up where the love story ended in her previous novel, Gilbert shares the struggles she and Felipe face when he runs into trouble flying in and out of the US post 9-11. While there was never a moment of doubt in her mind that they would get married to solve their problem, it is understandable to follow her journey to coming to terms with the idea of getting married again. Though we can only appreciate her arguments from a female perspective, since we don’t know exactly how Felipe felt through the whole process, we can get a sense that her research is not just for her sake alone. It takes two to tango, after all.

I appreciated the parts where she talks with women in Laos, trying to understand the concept of “The One” or knowing that he was the right man to marry. The women in a small village merely laughed at her suggestion that emotions had anything to do with the fact that they married their men. It was about having babies and continuing the genetic lines. The reality is that men do their thing, women do theirs and the two only mix when it comes to getting busy for the sake of procreation. The completely unromantic nature of it sounds strange and sad to the Western romantics.

Yet, she doesn’t give up on her romantic notions, but comes to realize that (I think) it could be worse – we could marry for no emotional reason at all. πŸ™‚ I fully appreciated her discussion about children. Gilbert shares that there is 10% of many female populations who do not have children. These women fulfill a very important role of “Auntie”. Aunties tend to have more money because they don’t have children, which can be used to help others out when in need. Aunties tend to be more attractive for children to confide in or use as an outlet when the parents are just too much. Sounds perfect to me! My lack of desire to have my own children totally confirms that I’m not a crazy, unloving, selfish woman. Rather, I’m meant to be a great Auntie! πŸ˜€

So, while I know that this is not for everyone to read, I enjoyed it and felt good after reading it. So, I guess that’s all that matters!

More to come…

-T

Sep 222010
 

James Patterson usually entertains me. Some might not be a fan of his writing or find it quality work, but when I read mass printed paperbacks, I’m just looking to be entertained. So, as another option found on the beach house bookshelf, I couldn’t really pass it up.

Patterson has a few serial characters that he continues to develop and one is Alex Cross, an African-American detective with three kids and his grandmother. Through the novels we’ve seen Alex develop relationships, solve crimes and for me, become interested in his family. This novel takes a slightly different point of view in that it’s a novel about a novel about the Cross family history in the South – Mississippi.

It did have a _To Kill A Mockingbird_ feel to it and it did sort of bring out the same kind of stories of the struggles of the blacks in a horribly racist and inhumane part of Mississippi. These stories need to be retold as often as possible to remind us of where we have come as a society and where we still need to go.

I read it quickly and easily. I was moved and at the same time bored with the story. No real reason why….

More to come…

-T

 Posted by at 20:22
Sep 222010
 

While staying at the beach house during my visit to the Oregon Coast with my family, I finished reading Cormac McCarthy’s _The Road_. He is the author of other books such as _No Country for Old Men_, _All the Pretty Horses_, etc. R had borrowed this book from the library before the summer holidays and said it was really well-written. So, when I saw it on the bookshelf at the house, I thought I’d give it a try.

The story follows the journey of a father and son as they try to survive in a desolate and forsaken version of the world. Neither character bears a name other than Papa and the boy. Nothing is really known about the world they are trying to make it in, but through flashbacks, dreams and memories the reader gets a sense of an old world, like the one we know today.

McCarthy’s descriptions of the land, feelings of conflict and building of suspense in the encounters between the father and son and the “bad” guys keeps the reader engaged. However, while the story may lead the reader to expect progress in the journey itself, the reality is that the progress is found in the survival of the boy when his father is no longer able to care for and protect him.

Generally-speaking, as I progressed through the novel, I kept thinking how it must be written for a male-audience. The sentences were definitely descriptive, but the emotions described were stilted and difficult to decipher. The relationship between the father and boy felt like how I have observed men communicate with one another – not knowing how emotional to be or how many words are required to express themselves.

It’s not a story for those who would like a happily ever after-ending, but those who are optimists and Dostoevsky lovers will appreciate the need to imagine a more hopeful future despite dismal circumstances. πŸ™‚

More to come…

-T

 Posted by at 20:09
Sep 222010
 

As part of my yearly reading of something philosophical, I decided it was time to finish Plato’s _The Republic_, which I had started for a Philosophies of Education course at Teachers College.

I enjoyed reading the thoughts of Plato through Socrates and comparing the philosophies of society now with the ideas of then. Times have not really changed much, surprisingly, over the years. For example, consider Socrates’ argument about the separation of men and women. He states that only humans deem females as the weaker sex with the men trying to make themselves better as a gender. Other animals have females as the hunters or protectors (like the lions); or the men are prettier and in need of attracting the female (as in the birds). So, why do we as humans, supposedly the superior race, feel the need to separate the genders opposite to what is considered “natural” to other species? It’s just a rhetorical question and something to consider – no need for responses! πŸ˜€

Though I do not always follow Socrates’ if a=b and b=c then a=c logic, because I do not always believe this to be true; it’s interesting to consider his arguments in this manner. I often wondered if he believed these arguments himself or was simply playing devil’s advocate and trying to get a rise out of the men who are the “Great Thinkers” and “Wise” of the society. It seems that Socrates’ nature would agree with my musings….

It’s no wonder that this is a foundational read for philosophy and I know I’ll have to revisit it to remind myself of the challenging societal questions that were argued so many years ago and yet continue to be without answers.

More to come…

-T

 Posted by at 20:00
Sep 212010
 

Is it true or just a common way of complaining that it already feels like three months of vacation never happened after just three days of classes?

I know I said that it’s not that I’m not happy to be back, but I think it’s a lie. I’ve got culture shock and homesickness all at the same time. On top of that, my head is full of what-to-do’s, what-if’s, and how-do-I-know’s.

It’s good to see friends again after a while away. It’s good to have my car and my things. It’s good overall. But…

Since I’ve been back, I’ve felt like I’m in a middle world, like some science fiction story where I can see two worlds – both that I like or want – and can’t have either. So, I’m in this in-between place/phase and not sure what to do to get out of it – to kick myself into gear….

Sleep is all I want right now! 😐

 Posted by at 19:33
Sep 152010
 

Deep in my gut is where I feel it
Deep in my soul is where I know it
Deep in my heart is where I keep it

This feeling
This connection
This love

When I’m with you
The world slows down

When I’m with you
The air feels lighter

When I’m with you
The darkness fades away

Into the laughter
Into the joy
Into the peacefulness

Of this feeling
Of this connection
Of this love

~T
September 5, 2010

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