It’s been difficult for me to gather together my thoughts and direction lately. While I’m still working and doing my PhD, I feel as if I’m beginning to straddle multiple worlds and am not yet certain how they are going to co-exist or if they can at all.
World 1
For some time, I’ve felt that the time is drawing closer for the right moment to begin to share my story. Since I was 8-years-old and finally found a happy and healthy home, I began writing and wanting to find a way to remember my story so that one day I could share it with others. Somehow I knew then that what my life had been up until then was worth keeping track of and to someday put out in the world so that if there were others like me, we would never feel as alone as I did growing up.
With many Korean adoptees coming to an age of reflecting, more stories are beginning to come out about our adoption experiences. There is a range of emotions that are being revealed from the most bitter to the most content and yet all our stories are different and unique. So, I have begun to follow my path in writing and am looking/searching for the best way to continue along this way. I know more will be coming on this….
World 2
With some overlap is my dream of writing. So, I’ve begun following different writing paths. For a little while now, I’ve been doing some restaurant reviewing – though nothing in print as of yet. Also, I’ve found a couple of sites on which I can write to hopefully make a little income. Most recently, R and I are starting a site on life in Abu Dhabi. It’s currently being developed, but when we’re ready to broadcast, I’ll let everyone know. 🙂
World 3
The one in which I exist most of the time. I continue to enjoy teaching. Surprisingly, this term has been the most enjoyable and relaxing of any in the past year and a half that I’ve been here. The pursuit my doctorate is still going forward, but I’m less motivated now with these other worlds fighting for a presence.
So, this is where I am and while my heart is calm, my mind whirls…
-T
