It’s March! There’s only another 10 months to go before 2011 finishes….. Most people say, “I can’t believe it’s already March, this year is going so fast!” But, lately, I’m thinking, it’s only March…but why should I be in a rush for the year to come to an end? More importantly, what are others doing that time seems to be flying by so fast for them?
It’s been about four months that I’ve been taking meds and trying to get my life in a balance. Some parts of my life have fabulously found its way to a solid calm and others leave me completely up and down. So, then I start to contemplate, what am I doing? Where am I going? What’s the point of this life I’m leading? What would be better if this is not satisfactory? Or am I just being an aimless, selfish, spoiled person trying to find some ridiculous epiphany that others in the world have learned to accept doesn’t exist?
I want to write, but I haven’t been writing.
I want to do my PhD, but every time I pick up the paperwork to move forward, I get bored and put it down.
I want to finish a research project started more than two years ago, but the data analysis also bores me so that though I’m very interested in the results I cannot focus enough to try to understand them.
These are the three highest activities on my list and all three very much within my control to do. So, what’s stopping me…? I DON’T KNOW! π
So, for the second time in my life, I feel aimless/directionless/unsure – at least in terms of my non-personal life. It’s somehow not bothering me like I should, which is a thumbs up for drugs! π
As for my personal life – well, I’ll save something more interesting for a more uplifting post to come soon. π
Until next time…
-T
