Creative Meanderings

First, sorry for the font changes. I wanted to change it, but can’t seem to find one yet that quite fits…. So, there may be still more changes until I find it. 🙂

This week has been…both good and bad.

I had yet another run-in with management people and seem to just be sealing my fate to not get along with them. This is one negative motivating factor to push me to focus more and get this PhD written and done with. It has pushed me to make a few decisions –

*I will not roll over and let incompetence be allowed at the expense of my own integrity. If people (aka management) cannot take responsibility for their errors and would rather that I take the blame, then I’m afraid I will have to take the black mark rather than allow myself to be walked over.

*When the degree is finished, I will find a job that allows me to shine and will appreciate the many talents and energy I am able to give. It is not out of arrogance that I have confidence, but rather I know what I am capable of and I know what I have done over the years that have positively contributed to any workplace I have been a part of. Any manager worth his/her salt will see what I have to offer and utilize my energy positively. I may have to leave this country to find this place for me, but I will find it.

*I am trying to renew my faith in the idea that the ‘good guys’ will eventually win. If I continue to behave professionally, and take the higher road, then someday it will be to my great advantage. In other words, one day, karma will come around. It may sound a bit vindictive, and may be that is how I mean it… I’m not sure, but this is where I’m at right now.

So, I’m on the market for a change. I will not apply for any more language programs like this other than the couple I already have out for Japan. Japan is a bit of a different situation, so I am still not closed off to teaching language there. However, from now on I will look for the kind of job that is best for me in consulting, training or professional development in a way that promotes true integrity and positive motivation.

Until next time…

-T 😀