I am thinking I am just tired more than anything else from the past week, but it also feels a bit as if I am kind of wound up, which is the anxious part. I am feeling this need to go somewhere or to just release some tension. Maybe something simple like a massage would do the trick, I’m not sure.
Anyway, the Apple training is now complete and in the ideal world I will hear the results in a week or so. If I move forward with it, then it could become a very busy and full-time kind of work, which would be rockin’ awesome.
However, there is also another side of me that is wondering if this is a distraction from my writing goals or am I just being blinded into thinking one cannot be in unison with the other? Perhaps I just need to rethink about how they can go well together and still meet the ultimate objective of getting the heck out of language teaching?!
There’s also a voice in my head saying to make a decision on the PhD so that I stop going back and forth. It is also not necessarily something I have to think about as all or nothing (ie I don’t have to solely work on it to get it done). Yet, I do need to work on it if I really want to finish it. I think I do. I’m pretty sure I do. Still…it’s only like 75%….
My head seems to be spinning and I wonder what I would really be like if it weren’t for the meds. I probably would be in a non-sleeping pattern and on a crazy high just to make myself feel more settled….. I always like to compare myself with and without meds to keep perspective.
So, that’s my crazy rambling for today. Next up, getting my new blog going or maybe a nap…. π
-T π
