Dec 172013
 

This week starts my 5mg run and next week I will be completely off the Cipralex for the first time since March. Nine months is pretty good, even though I had said a year. It is interesting how much changes in a short span.

The past couple of weeks I have been extremely energetic and quite happy. Sometimes I scare R in the morning with my ‘joy’. I really do feel good, though I am starting to get a little bit tired since I have been doing a lot in the early hours – all before the day even really begins. Still, I feel like there is true positive energy coming out of me.

At the same time, I am journaling every day to stay on the watch for the signs that this is an extreme high and the extreme low may come. I am hoping that will not happen and that if this wears off, I will at least be able to maintain control so that the low never fully hits. So, we will see.

In any case, there is nothing wrong with being happy and productive!

-T πŸ˜€

Dec 162013
 

It is strange how it seems that when I do not have classes to teach I am actually busier than when I do. Yesterday, I had a presentation for our professional development week. Today, I have one. Tomorrow, I have two. Plus, I’ve got another book summarizing job, PhD transcriptions to do and more. It’s gonna be a busy one!

-T πŸ˜€

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Dec 142013
 

I feel meh…no interest in writing anything of interest at the moment. I have some work to prepare for tomorrow, so I will do that to ensure productivity but then the rest of the day will be…?

 Posted by at 07:25
Dec 132013
 

That’s how I have felt the last few days.

Everything has been really excellent in my life lately. Even with the decrease in meds, I am staying focused for now and it seems as if positive opportunities are opening before me. I am trying hard to attract more of this positive energy in my life.

Of course, the universe must then challenge me in some area and it would be through my heart.

Strangely, I remain calm although I wake up thinking about things or feeling severe annoyance. I am really trying to process how I feel before I take action to attempt another communication session.

What is she talking about, you must be thinking?

Well, I do not want to go into much detail as it is quite personal and as there is no current solution I am not ready to fully debrief.

So, while you must stay a bit in the dark, at least I can share that my heart and mind are a bit troubled….

-T πŸ˜€

 Posted by at 07:13
Dec 112013
 

Yes, it is a bit delayed, I apologize.

We happened to go down to the beach on the second day of National Day celebrations around here. It was a lovely day out and we were treated to a short air show as they prepared for the evening fireworks. We did not stay for that (we are notΒ thatΒ crazy!).

Below the pics are a couple of videos:

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02-Dec-2013 15:42, Apple iPhone 5s, 2.2, 4.12mm, ISO 40
 
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02-Dec-2013 16:02, Apple iPhone 5s, 2.2, 4.12mm, 0.001 sec, ISO 40
 
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02-Dec-2013 16:12, Apple iPhone 5s, 2.2, 4.12mm, ISO 40
 

-T πŸ˜€

 Posted by at 06:22
Dec 102013
 

I think I mentioned that I decided to go off the Cipralex since winter holidays are coming up soon and I can kind of see how I react without the stress of work added. Last week I was on 15mg instead of 20mg. I think I felt a slight change, mostly in my sleeping, but in general I still feel quite good. So, now I am switching to 10mg this week and shall see how half dosage goes.

R has been warned and asked to keep a watch to see how/if my behavior changes as I decrease. If I become too rattled again, then that is a sign to think about going back on. I am really hoping that what I have learned from Karen will keep me focused so that I do not need the meds. We shall see!

-T πŸ˜€

Dec 072013
 

One of the things I like to do with some friends is go out and eat Korean food. Sadly, R is not a fan, so I go with others. The best part is drinking soju and getting very happy.

Over the years, I have met very few non-Koreans who can handle soju. Even many Koreans cannot handle their own national drink.

Here’s an article that proves that (thanks to R).

Still, I have fond memories of getting extremely blitzed and then somehow I wake up feeling not too bad. It’s like tequila for me, only perhaps stronger. πŸ˜€

In any case, these are times when I know my true Korean roots are showing!

-T πŸ˜€

 Posted by at 11:03
Dec 032013
 

It dawned on me the other day that I cannot remember the last time that I felt so good physically and even mentally. I think I am probably in better shape now than I was in my 20s and I really feel good.

The Paleo diet has made a huge difference in my physical appearance and energy level. Although I am not drastically thin like I was back in NYC, I have lost quite a bit of my hip and bum fat. My stomach is flatter from not being bloated all the time. Besides that, I only work out a few days a week for about 30 minutes instead of being crazy and going every day for an hour. Though I am not 100% strict with the Paleo, I do notice a difference, which makes it worth it.

Coaching sessions with Karen have really affected my mental state. Unfortunately, today will be my last session with her for financial reasons, but I cannot discount the help she has given me to feel more confident, proud of myself and content with where I am at now while looking toward the future. I feel as if my mind has really shifted and so now I realize I do not worry so much about things or let stress build up in me like I did before.

Also, starting with last night’s pills, I am slowly weaning myself off the Cipralex to see how I feel not taking them anymore. I started by decreasing from 20mg to 15mg. I will do this for a week and then go to 10mg and finally to 5mg. My plan is that it will hit most over the winter break so I can see how my mind reacts when I do not have to be ‘on’ for work each day. If I feel okay, then I will try my best to stay off of them. If I cannot keep a handle on things, then I will go back on in a month or so. However, I am hoping that with the new eating style and settled mind, I can manage. So, no doubt there will be regular updates here. πŸ˜‰

So, our short week begins!

-T πŸ˜€

Dec 022013
 

It is hard to believe this is a country that was not a country only 42 years ago. It is a teenage country trying to act like an adult, but is so spoiled with riches that it is hard to mature properly.

I call this place random. Everything seems without order or purpose and yet it manages to function.

The one thing that is not random is the amount of celebration that goes into their National Day. The celebrations go on for about a week and two days are the actual holiday itself.

Last week, we had celebrations at the university. Then, we were given a much appreciated four-day weekend!

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24-Nov-2013 18:49, Apple iPhone 4S, 2.4, 4.28mm, 0.067 sec, ISO 400
 
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27-Nov-2013 12:30, Apple iPhone 4S, 2.4, 4.28mm, 0.05 sec, ISO 80
 
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27-Nov-2013 12:34, Apple iPhone 4S, 2.4, 4.28mm, 0.05 sec, ISO 125
 
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27-Nov-2013 12:37, Apple iPhone 4S, 2.4, 4.28mm, 0.025 sec, ISO 64
 
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27-Nov-2013 12:39, Apple iPhone 4S, 2.4, 4.28mm, 0.017 sec, ISO 50
 
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30-Nov-2013 13:06, Apple iPhone 4S, 2.4, 4.28mm, 0.05 sec, ISO 400
 

Although I generally hide inside and avoid being anywhere outside at night during these days, I can appreciate their love for their country and desire to party it up. πŸ˜›

-T πŸ˜€

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