Most of the time I try my best to avoid being angry. It’s true that I can then have a tendency to explode because I hold in my emotions, including anger. All throughout my years with various therapists, they have tried to tell me that anger is good for me and it’s okay to let it out. Sometimes I agreed and other times I did not.
However, I believe that now at 38-years-old I have finally accepted that anger is good for me.
For some, anger is their first emotion used as a defensive mechanism. For me, that would be denial – everything is great! π
Anger for me is the last emotion in my processing. By the time I hit the anger mode, I have realized and accepted both my and the other party or parties role in a bad situation. It makes me angry that I was blind or poorly behaved. It makes me angry that the other party(s) were/are blind or poorly behaved. So, I’m at anger – or was at anger yesterday.
This morning, I’m at a little angry with more sadness. Nothing in life is perfect, but what makes relationships work between people is the fight to keep them going and strong. When one side does not fully participate it is at the expense of the other and to what end…?
So, it’s time to pick up my feet and start moving on up and onwards! π
-T
