This was a phrase I heard a lot yesterday at work. We got some news that the bills are not being paid for some reason and so we might lose maintenance (thus use) of our xerox machines – which break down daily – and our main learning management system (Blackboard) may shut down!
It’s so interesting how on the outside everything can seem to be a well-oiled functioning machine, but then…the truth sets in and you see behind the glare of the shininess to reveal … less than ideal. π
It made me consider us as people. Don’t we all try to present ourselves as well put together, well-adjusted, generally okay people? Yet, we bond with others over complaining about our lives hoping that someone else will feel our pain. It’s a fascinating dichotomy that makes me imagine, what we all stopped pretending and then bonded over the great things in our lives? How different would the world be then?
Last night, I cried. Really cried. It was the first time since Christmas Eve day. It hurt and yet it was needed. I wanted to run to get a hug, but that would serve no good. It was because I saw him in the hall yesterday and managed pleasantries. It was all so… fake. I’m NOT okay despite saying so in our exchange of “how’s it going?” Yet, that is what it has come to for now. <deep exhale, deep inhale>
So, while the wheels are falling off certain carts, I am working to tighten the bolts on mine and keep on keeping on! π
-T
