Creative Meanderings

Some months ago I had a six month plan to write a series of articles on how to find peace & calm in our busy world focusing on meditation. Part of the plan was to interview women in the field of spirituality & wellness. However, this did not really happen because I realized that I am not that kind of writer.The truth is, that like any stereotypical ‘artist’, I am self-centered when it comes to writing. It needs to be personal. It needs to share my voice, perspective & personal monologue on the world. Unfortunately, I am not fascinated enough by others to share their stories for them. I am happy to read inspiring stories that others want to share either by their own hand or another’s, but not by mine.I realize this may sound horrible, but such as it is. Part of my belief in the world is that we are individuals. Instead of waiting around for someone else to notice us or to tell our stories, we are sentient beings fully capable of speaking for ourselves. If we want the world to know about us, then we should take the steps to do so. Waiting for someone else is pure laziness or lack of conviction, suggesting that it isn’t that important to us at the moment. Maybe later it will be.This is not to say that the role of journalism is not important, just that close-ups and profiles is not for me.Instead, I write my story. Or, I write about my own experience & knowledge.So, my latest article has been published.I am quite happy with it because it was written from the heart. Although it did not take me long to actually write it in the end, the processing time had been going on for a while. I felt as if my voice & heart was in it.It is times like this when I feel the itch to write my story with this heartfelt voice. I wonder if I can weave my thoughts well enough to inspire others?When I read the novels of those I know, I am impressed by their skill in storytelling. At the same time, I feel slightly disappointed that I am reading fiction. Imagine, with this gift of storytelling, what they could do in the world to touch hearts & minds? But, is that their purpose? Why isn’t entertainment a sufficient purpose?Because it’s me!Recall, I am a self-centered ‘artist’ type when it comes to writing – perhaps in life too. :PIn any case, I am contemplating taking my judgy self to task and setting a goal of actually writing that book within.No time like the present, right?We’ll see….~T 😀

Yesterday, I wrote about my dark mood thinking that it was ‘frustration’, but that didn’t quite seem to fit. As I let it sit for the night and enjoyed being “lazy” for an evening, it freed my mind to be able to reflect and relax.

This morning, during my meditation, a more accurate explanation came to mind.

– Fulfillment-

I think that perhaps what is wrong is a growing sense that I have moved away from work that fulfills me. Sure, some might see it as a luxury to be able to do that which fulfills us or seems to be completing our life purpose.

However, those same people are very likely carrying around a dark hole inside them as well. This darkness is what I honestly believe leads to illnesses in the body.

While I am happy to have a job with a regular income – in fact a couple of sources of income – , I find that my heart is not fulfilled. I thought also that maybe I needed more creative outlets, but I have plenty of writing opportunities, so that can’t be it.

What is missing is connecting with others on a spiritual level through a physical activity. It is a lack of fullness of breath and the Opening of Sunshine into the Heart to remove the dark spots that get us down in this life that we share.

This also gives new meaning to the name I chose for my yoga business. I have recently been pondering how to describe the type of yoga that I offer and was thinking to call it something like “Correction Yoga” since we cannot use the word “therapy” in this type of yoga. I’ll keep thinking on this, but this is close, as the yoga practice and focus corrects spinal alignment, fullness of breath and perspective on life through OSH.

As if to tell me that I’m on the right track in my thought pattern, I reached out to say “Hello” to my yoga teacher. She replied quickly, saying she’d had a dream about me and wants to Skype. Somehow, we are connected, as every time I feel that I need some spiritual fulfillment she comes into the forefront of my life again.

So, I feel as if I have put my finger on what I was searching for yesterday. It’s a satisfying and uplifting feeling for sure.

There are plenty of good ‘F’ words out there!! O

~T 😀