One of my favorite TV shows is Criminal Minds. Aside from the obvious reason that it satisfies my increasingly morbid fascination with crime, death, and the psychology of murder, I also love it because it has delved into character development, which touches on why people would do that kind of job. My takeaway from nearly every episode is that they are doing something meaningful, significant, and impactful on other’s lives. They may glamorize it for TV, but they also make it clear that it’s not always easy to follow what they feel called to do. Even the character/actor changes has been done with a realistic sense that the job is not always worth it at any cost.
So, then I think π€, if people can risk their lives, sacrifice their personal lives, and still make a difference, then what is impossible about my dream to write or do something that is more meaningful, significant and impactful?
Perhaps, because I am starting to grasp the reality of aging and watching the youth grow into adults, I am struck by a stronger than usual sense of frustration in watching others – young and older – live life inefficiently and with lackluster. At the same time, I recognize my own self-limiting way of thinking in not really doing anything purposeful to influence those I can to change perspective or be motivated to do more.
Sure, I can find a lot of reasonable excuses, but they are still excuses.
Therefore, despite filling my mind with stories of those who can no longer do anything in this world, I am somehow awakened to what is possible among the living. I never want my story to be – “she always talked and wrote about wanting to write or share her story in hopes of making a difference”. Instead, I hope that when my time comes people will say – “she influenced me to be a better person through her writing.”
Then, I would feel as if I have fulfilled a purpose.
So, to do this I am going to do a bit of research – yes, of course! I need a bit of help in creating a functional structure to make this happen. Just like we say with yoga, when a teacher is ready students will come, when the book is written readers will buy and read it!
Stay tuned for more on this soon!
~T π
