Every now and then, I return to previous thoughts. This one is one of them, but perhaps from a different perspective point.
There is a line in one of my favorite movies that I often consider relatable on many levels to my own way of thinking and place in this world.
Jo says “I love our home, but I’m just so fitful and I can’t stand being here! … There’s just something really wrong with me.”
Her wise mother replies with “Oh, Jo. Jo, you have so many extraordinary gifts; how can you expect to lead an ordinary life? You’re ready to go out and – and find a good use for your talent. Tho’ I don’t know what I shall do without my Jo. Go, and embrace your liberty. And see what wonderful things come of it.”
I feel as if this exchange of feelings gave me permission to embrace the life path that I have chosen.
As I am on the way home again after five years of complete absence due to C19 and moving countries. Strangely enough I still call the place of my family as “home”. I also call the house with my partner as home.
Still, even with both, I often find myself with that sentiment of not fully wanting/needing to be there.
So I am both excited and curious as to how I will feel being back in the US of A. A place that has been the source of news, drama, division, and derision around the world over the past few years. Yet, like anywhere, when on the ground and in the life everything else seems distant and over-hyped.
Mostly, I hope that I have made the most of my liberty though I’m not yet sure I’ve found a use – or even identified – my talent(s), but I most definitely am embracing the journey.
~T 🔥🐉♋️
