Creative Meanderings

A year ago
I was starting an adventure
A year ago
I was buzzing with the unknown
A year ago
I was longing for what I was leaving behind

Then, the year passed
in a blur
The year passed
with great perplexion
The year passed
with the future always unsure

Now, somehow
the world is spinning a little slower
Somehow
life here is a little less annoying
Somehow
my reasons for being here are a little clearer

To get here
I had to hurt
To get here
I had to hurt others
To get here
I had to endure
To get here
I had to be endured

But, at last
I’m here.
I’m happy.
I’m content.
I’m free.
I’m me.

-T
~February 6, 2010

What happened to my dreams,
Where I used to imagine were in the clouds?

What happened to my faith,
Where I used to see His face in the clouds?

What happened to my voice,
Where I used to speak and sing to the clouds?

What happened to the joy,
Where I used to find in the clouds?

-T
~written in December, 2009

It wasn’t until the end was near
That it became so clear
Our hearts are intertwined
So strong is the connection of our minds

A friend, a lover, a confidante
A laugh, a kiss, a shoulder to cry on
All these moments we share
All these emotions seemed to come from nowhere

Yet as we weave our way
It feels only natural each day
To allow ourselves to do
Whatever it takes to say “I love you”

-T
~January 6, 2010

Oh how the tears wet my pillow
As my arms ache in the absence
That makes my heart droop like a weeping willow

As the sun sets each night
I dread the darkness rolling in
Knowing its the shadows I have to fight

Every part of me misses your presence,
Your eyes, your smile, your smell, your touch
Your breath, your laugh, your very essence

I try to stay active and busy
I try to plan things to do
I try and try that I go dizzy

But despite all my cries
All I can do
Is wait for the sun to rise

-T
~August 30, 2009