Creative Meanderings

Our current political climate feels as if we have gone back in time to an era when women were objectified and respected for how they best serve their men. However, this feeling that we have gone backwards is a lie. The truth is that we never progressed. Instead, we merely sugar-coated, appeased and pretended that women have made progress in the world. 

Sure, women have much more freedom than they ever had. Women hold more important leadership positions and are recognized more than they were before. Yet, when you hear the everyday conversations around you, I wonder just how much we have progressed.

How often do you hear a conversation about a man that centers around what he was wearing, his current mood or contemplation if he is in his time of the month? How often are men even second-guessed for what they have said or done? How often are men judged on his attitude or looks?

The other day my own husband said in response to me suggesting he find me a job as a PA was “well, I doubt that anyone wants a PA who is sourly….” Although said in some jest, I was greatly offended. First of all, I am not sourly especially in a professional setting. Secondly, my professional CV has often been remarked as being “impressive” – yet my own husband judges on my mood. 

Furthermore, the world is still very much a man’s world. No one can convince me that women have it good in this society. Women are not appreciated for what they do for their men unless it is to be beautiful arm decoration, eye candy or the like. Constant comments on how well a woman is ageing or looks in the workplace is often brought home to be replicated in the home….

I am not a woman of the past. Now, I am a woman taught to be supportive of her husband and to work as a team in the partnership of marriage. Being in my second marriage, I am also more careful than I was in my first about the concerns, issues and decisions of my husband. However, I do not necessarily believe that one of us is the head of the household but rather that we trade off taking the lead as partners do. 

This means that I also might comment on my man’s looks, moods, and so on – just as he does with me. The difference is that I believe that I am respectful about how I do it with an appreciation of who he is. Perhaps he would disagree. Perhaps it feels differently because I am a woman and he is a man, so when a man objectifies a woman it comes with all those stereotypical connotations of men being men. 

Either way, the fact is that times have not really changed despite our pretense that they have….

~T 😀

Do you ever feel as if you are could possibly be walking the thin line between life and death?

I do not mean this in the sense of suicide or premonitions of some dramatic accident occurring. I mean in the sense that perhaps some great awakening, change of a life season or maybe, yes, even actual death is about to happen to you.

This is somewhat how I feel lately. 

I feel as if the energy around me is building up an anticipation for a revelation of something. Given our world of uncertainty this could also be a sense of wishful thinking as well. However, if I take away the cynic inside of me, I could accept that soon all answers shall be revealed to me/us. 

There is also a part of me that imagines the possibility that it could also be the end of this life for me coming soon as well. When I start to have a sense of euphoria or as if the planets are coming into alignment for my benefit, I tend to want to bring it back to my potential escape from this world. 

Remember back when I wrote about my different view about death? Well, this goes for my own life as well. I have no intentions nor desires to live forever; though I accept that potentially I might live longer than everyone I know due to God’s sense of irony in my life. I accepted long ago that I would not be one of the lucky ones who could escape naturally from this world no matter how much I might have desired it. Since I chose not to take my own life years ago, I have determined to live life the best that I can while also being ready to go when the time should finally come. 

Learning to navigate through this life has been and continues to be a challenge. Still, I do not take the days for granted anymore and I appreciate those who enter my life without second guessing why they are there. I appreciate how the years have affected me and how recent years have taught me to control my mind, reactions and behaviors more so that I can truly enjoy what is thrown my way. 

So, as I observe the interactions of my life, the answers to my universal requests, and so on I continue feel as if something is on the verge…. All there is to be done is to be open to what may be revealed.

~T 😀