It’s been a while since I’ve talked about my ‘ups and downs’, but as I just took my bi-weekly anxiety and depression test I thought it might be a good time to update.
It seems I’m on a gradual decline for both anxiety and depression, which is good as there are no drugs involved in helping with it. However, it could also just be that I’m on my way up, so as always I have to be aware of my behavior and activities.
Lately, I’ve been talking about all the crafty things I do on top of all the stuff I take on at work. It makes me seem a bit on the nutty side. I mean who crochets, knits, sews, does pottery whilst doing a PhD and taking on about three different jobs at work that aren’t just the normal teaching load? A crazy person, right?! π
So, I have been trying to slow my brain down enough to consider whether or not this is a healthy way to live. What is suffering, if anything? Should I try taking a step back from some things, such as coordinating or tech support? I haven’t quite come to any conclusions. One reason I’m so busy at work is to stay sane. I am not sure what I would do with myself if I weren’t so busy during the day as I can’t really do my doctoral studies there. Mostly, I just need to discipline myself at home better, but that is hard to do when I’m so tired from work….Perhaps this is an area that is suffering…? If I did less at work, would I do more at home? Hm…
Anyway, I generally start to get sad around this time of year being away from home during the holidays, but that hasn’t started yet….Maybe I’ve been too busy to think about! π
So, the ups and downs are staying more balanced lately. I just hope I can keep it that way….
-T π
