So…I decided that with my dark thoughts before my trip that it might not be a bad idea to give the antidepressants another try given that my stressors are generally external and stem from people, from whom I cannot totally isolate myself. Whilst in Turkey, I got my hands on more Cipralex as it is much cheaper there and I did not need a prescription. Also, my therapist is off for a couple of months and so it is sort of a good time to test out non-therapy methods. Of course, when I see her again I will discuss this path and how it is going in terms of whether or not I would like to continue.
Anyway, I am starting slowly and want to keep track of how I go through the process. Thus, last night I took 5mg (half a 10mg pill) along with my vitamins. Today, around 1pm, I suddenly felt quite drowsy and as if I was in a bit of a blur. It was almost as if I were a little drunk, but no alcohol in my system. As I was driving home from being out, I wondered if I should be driving given that I was sweeeeppy and nothing was really running through my head. It seems rather fast for it to kick in, but I am very sensitive to all drugs (except tequila!). My head is a little bit achy, but not too much.
Also, I am still recovering from the food poisoning I contracted from something on the flight home, which could also affect my response given that I have eaten very little the past few days and am probably in need of a lot more fluids. So, will write again tomorrow.
By the way, I have back-posted my first Turkey trip day….
-T π
