After receiving such lovely gifts and going out the other night, yesterday was a complete 180 away from that.
It’s strange how small triggers in our minds can set off huge storms in our interactions with others. The voices that we let override logic control so much of our behavior and reactions. It is a shame when the results are negative and we cannot see how the negativity completely derails our lives.
So, a while back, I posted about possible changes and things I was processing on a personal level. One of those things was changing my living situation. My current one has been good for quite some time, but there has been a slow downgrade lately.
On top of that, yesterday, we had a blow out over something very trivial in and of itself. However, it caused such a commotion that all has been called off. In a way, it makes my decisions easier. Of course, as with anything you’ve had for a long time and been emotionally invested in, it hurts and is extremely sad.
Life goes on. Too bad we couldn’t have made it peacefully through the holidays, but I suppose in some ways it is better to not pretend just for the sake of a holiday…. π
Nothing will change right away for me, but the wheels are turning.
-T π