Do you ever feel as if you are could possibly be walking the thin line between life and death?
I do not mean this in the sense of suicide or premonitions of some dramatic accident occurring. I mean in the sense that perhaps some great awakening, change of a life season or maybe, yes, even actual death is about to happen to you.
This is somewhat how I feel lately.
I feel as if the energy around me is building up an anticipation for a revelation of something. Given our world of uncertainty this could also be a sense of wishful thinking as well. However, if I take away the cynic inside of me, I could accept that soon all answers shall be revealed to me/us.
There is also a part of me that imagines the possibility that it could also be the end of this life for me coming soon as well. When I start to have a sense of euphoria or as if the planets are coming into alignment for my benefit, I tend to want to bring it back to my potential escape from this world.
Remember back when I wrote about my different view about death? Well, this goes for my own life as well. I have no intentions nor desires to live forever; though I accept that potentially I might live longer than everyone I know due to God’s sense of irony in my life. I accepted long ago that I would not be one of the lucky ones who could escape naturally from this world no matter how much I might have desired it. Since I chose not to take my own life years ago, I have determined to live life the best that I can while also being ready to go when the time should finally come.
Learning to navigate through this life has been and continues to be a challenge. Still, I do not take the days for granted anymore and I appreciate those who enter my life without second guessing why they are there. I appreciate how the years have affected me and how recent years have taught me to control my mind, reactions and behaviors more so that I can truly enjoy what is thrown my way.
So, as I observe the interactions of my life, the answers to my universal requests, and so on I continue feel as if something is on the verge…. All there is to be done is to be open to what may be revealed.
~T π
