My logical brain says that it is time to start to prepare for life after:
- full-time yoga training
- constant stress of M’s situation
- worry about paying people back
- fretting on how to pay the next bills
For almost 18 months or maybe even close to two years, it has been a life of stress and struggle. I took for granted my health insurance, regular paycheck, being rent-free and choosing a life of leisure over security.
Even now, when we get a bit of money old habits return where I can be easily influenced to splurge on a weekend of luxury and fun.
However, I never ever want to return to the stresses of before. We are inching closer and closer to being free of immediate worry and able to relax knowing that we do not have avoid the phone calls or run through who might be wanting money from us. Yes, that’s the life it has been.
So, now I can work on envisioning the life of abundance and success that we want to manifest. It might take some time for me to shake the trauma of worry but I have faith that more likely I will have to remind myself of it to keep us out of it ever again.
It is with a bit lighter shoulders and a brighter smile that I write this keeping our fingers crossed and faith strong that by the end of the week all will be normal and well once again. Keep sending us that positive energy cuz it’s working!
~T 😀
