When you watch the Oscars, have you ever sort of felt sorry for the supporting actors/actresses? Maybe not because they are still being recognized with an award…. Still, they may have just been the main reason why the winners of Best Actor/Actress win.
Lately, I have felt a bit like this through our crisis situation. Whenever M talks about it, he speaks as if he was the only one going through the situation. I appreciate that his experience was his own and it was tough. However, he was not alone through it all and I was also extremely stressed and am still traumatized by the entire situation. Now that he is dealing with more things on his own – because he can now – it is as if he thinks I do not understand the stress of it. It feels as if he has forgotten that I experienced it first throughout this whole ordeal because he could not at that time.
It is not a competition on who has experienced more or worse – not by any means.
However, it is sometimes a very meaningful gesture to be recognized for the role that I did play when it was needed.
It is still a tense period for us. Although things are falling into place, patience is required beyond our known capacity for it. Each day is a game of waiting while trying to stay productive and busy. Thank goodness for my online work to allow me to feel as if I am being useful.
Anyway, more to come…
~T π
