Yesterday, I wrote about my dark mood thinking that it was ‘frustration’, but that didn’t quite seem to fit. As I let it sit for the night and enjoyed being “lazy” for an evening, it freed my mind to be able to reflect and relax.
This morning, during my meditation, a more accurate explanation came to mind.
– Fulfillment-
I think that perhaps what is wrong is a growing sense that I have moved away from work that fulfills me. Sure, some might see it as a luxury to be able to do that which fulfills us or seems to be completing our life purpose.
However, those same people are very likely carrying around a dark hole inside them as well. This darkness is what I honestly believe leads to illnesses in the body.
While I am happy to have a job with a regular income – in fact a couple of sources of income – , I find that my heart is not fulfilled. I thought also that maybe I needed more creative outlets, but I have plenty of writing opportunities, so that can’t be it.
What is missing is connecting with others on a spiritual level through a physical activity. It is a lack of fullness of breath and the Opening of Sunshine into the Heart to remove the dark spots that get us down in this life that we share.
This also gives new meaning to the name I chose for my yoga business. I have recently been pondering how to describe the type of yoga that I offer and was thinking to call it something like “Correction Yoga” since we cannot use the word “therapy” in this type of yoga. I’ll keep thinking on this, but this is close, as the yoga practice and focus corrects spinal alignment, fullness of breath and perspective on life through OSH.
As if to tell me that I’m on the right track in my thought pattern, I reached out to say “Hello” to my yoga teacher. She replied quickly, saying she’d had a dream about me and wants to Skype. Somehow, we are connected, as every time I feel that I need some spiritual fulfillment she comes into the forefront of my life again.
So, I feel as if I have put my finger on what I was searching for yesterday. It’s a satisfying and uplifting feeling for sure.
There are plenty of good ‘F’ words out there!! O
~T π
