My religious beliefs have waxed and waned over the years. Now, I feel as if I have a fairly balanced view and call myself spiritual rather than claiming to be a member of one religious sect. For some, this is a bit of a cop out because they don’t want to necessarily be associated with one seemingly ‘fanatical’ group over another.
In my case, I honestly believe in the realm of spirits and energies over the claim that one entity -unfortunately assigned the pronoun of he/him- controls the human world as we know it. While I cannot give reasonable explanation to the creation of the world, whether or not dinosaurs roamed the earth, or any other cosmic/scientific questioning for physical proof that a God of some sort exists, I can say that I have seen proof of what the Universe and its energies/spirits provide.
Over the years, I have read through the Bible – cover to cover – at least a half a dozen, if not more, times. I have read Buddhist teachings and other spiritually-minded texts. I still aim to eventually finish the Q’ran and other texts just out of interest. For me, these are written by men for mankind, but they do not necessarily speak to the heart and soul. Instead, most are stories and rules to try to control/guide the way of humans who have outsmarted even themselves.
Despite all of my time in and out of churches or reading texts, I have been most fascinated and moved by stories related to angels and spirits. One of my favorite songs growing up was “Angels Among Us” by Alabama. I also voraciously consumed novels about angels warring or spirits watching over us.
Ever since I met him, I have believed that my father is a guardian angel sent to rescue me from all that was evil in my life. Of course, I know he’s a man in flesh and blood. Of course, I know he is fallible. However, I know with all of my heart that both my mom and my dad were sent to adopt me for a reason and that most definitely saved me from going down a very different path in my life.
As I got older, this became even more evident to me.
After not seeing either of my parents for over two years, it is starting to wear on me. Yesterday, we video-chatted and I had a little one-on-one chat with each of them making it even clearer that I need to see them this year. So, plans are in the works!
~T π
